God speaks through her

They take in her words like religion. Search for it. Feed on it. Love it. They see her as hope. They see her as truth. A voice to make the day easier.Her poems and random writing seem to fall off of their own tongues. She invades minds. Slowly but surely. She moves in like a hawk. She circles over the unwarry much like a vulture but does not wait for death. She finds her prey alive and well and she attacks. Shifting every chromosome to prepare them for the takeover. Her stuff is strong, powered by a force familiar to the mass. A friend to many. They watch as the mild mannered liquid brews to a boil. She’s dangerous. She is exposed. She talks and they listen as God speaks through her.

He is at work.

He fucks with my intelligence. Tells me that I’m ugly when I know that I’m not. He makes me want to do things I don’t enjoy doing. Makes me feel angry when nothing is wrong. Puts words in peoples mouths that will be hurtful to me. He smiles when I cry. Laughs when I fail, even harder when I don’t try. He’s a force to reckon with. A voice to cast out. He’s real. I’m surrounded. The devil does not always wear red. He mingles with your family and friends. He attends your school. He signs your check. Sitting on a shelf at your local library and speaking through your speakers. Boasting across the scrolling marquee on your favorite news program. Unfortunately he is a multitask-er. He’s smart but I know someone smarter and more powerful. Someone who can hand pick people, things and circumstances that you need for personal growth and give them to you. Someone who also makes people say things, positive and uplifting things that are catered to you. He talks to you too…he tells you how beautiful and special you are. He holds your hand daily as you weather the storm, leading you to your destiny. He is real and he is at work. He smiles when you smile, cries when you cry. He protects you. He is GOD.

(C) Angela Williams

A beautiful Sunday like this

Life feels more like a paradise. I knew these days were moving in. A time where a weaker me would miss the stageshow. The spectacle of lights over my being, dangerously surrounding me and clouding my vision. “Drama queen no more” I inform my spectators. I have been touched, lifted and enlightened. Everywhere I turn I am faced with a life shifting descision. Hello my love, I will not hurt you. Hello mother, I will nurture you. Hello my friend, I have an answer for you. The route has been revealed. I am being carried and would be a fool not to lend my cooperation. A whispered thank you echoing through my body now and ever. When I change the world I will shout his name, for now ill say it, write it and type it on my g1…its a beautiful Sunday readers, and a beautiful year so far. Be grateful and praise him freely.

In response to fellow blogger's question....Is Gangsta rap dead??

Gangsta rap IS dead. People woke up. End of story lol women got tired of men acting like criminals and men realized it's not cool to engage in illegal activities. People now want to party, chill and make money. (In no particular order) Drake " I'm on a 24 hour, champagne diet, slippin while i'm sippin, I encourage you to try it, I only say that cuz I don't have to buy it, the club owner supply it, boy,I'm on that fly shit" replaces all "I kill, I still, I will" lol Just take notice of Weezy's change in subject matter, on Carter 1 Wayne was killin and takin names, now he is just fly, rich and good in bed? yes it's dead, and it's funny you start with 50 cent cuz mr "I stay high all the time" has admitted he has NEVER tried weed before. So I'm glad we don't have to hear all the BS anymore. Whew

Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire

Wow. This movie was amazing. If you can't handle intense family dysfunction and terrible child abuse then don't watch "Precious". I am too aware of how many sick people sexually, physically and mentally abuse their children so the popularity of this movie is refreshing. Director Lee Daniels cuts no corners with this film. I watched this with little or no research done on cast or plot I was just bored online looking for good torrents. I was soon astonished by the acting done by Mo'nique. Oh my, this role as a very abusive and scary mother opens many doors for her. She sets the mood and soon you will find yourself emerged in the life of a persevering young women fighting to stay alive in many ways. There are two surprising musical artist roles as well, I feel it's funner if you don't know because they are no where near as glamorous as they usually portray themselves to be. I rate this movie a 9/10 strictly because of the "realness". Some may not understand why a movie is showcased with such strong, touchy subjects being highlighted. Some may be offended or disgusted. I was touched and even more inclined to help people like Precious.

The turkey is on

I got started way late but what can I say? I went to sleep at 4am expecting a miracle. I'm at my grandma's (Nan...seen in pic) house and my mom and her friend Robert are also in the mix. We are now watching "Parent Trap" lol, isn't that what today is all about? It's a day to enjoy your family, be thankful for the simple things and eat your full of turkey and pie. This year all I can seem to think about is what thanksgiving is like for people who have nothing to eat. I know there are starving people all around the globe who are more grateful than most people in America. Collectively, we are a pretty corrupted bunch, most of us not close enough to God to count our blessings. I know there are great people amongst us but it's a rarity. I thought about getting a degree in urban planning and hitting the peace corps for a couple years and then coming back to the states and helping here too. I'm not too sure yet but like Paul Mooney says "This is the f*cking end!" and whatever I can do to make a difference in these latter years I will strive to do once I get back on my feet. Literally, 3 weeks after ACL reconstructive surgery and I can't walk yet. Still I remain thankful today...Yay, "Happy Feet" is on now! lol enjoy life...family...love. And thank him every step of the way.

Reunited (written July 12th, 2009)

A love so strong, that never ended
Paused for retaliation
Lessons taught
Sent to me in the form of my best friend
But to let that get in the way would be beyond foolish, detrimental to my walk
Lovers we became, what can I say?
I ran away to empty arms, unhappy endings, self-destructive and selfish becomings
He loved me. Always loved me
In the shadows…
An eye always watching, a voice always heard, an ear lent but never seen
Blinded with the devil riding me
I was a child walking unshielded
Class dismissed
Love was mine with GOD as my saviour…
Carried me to safety
True happiness was packaged and delivered
With one last gift to be given
An overwhelming feeling of completeness
Reassurance that I am headed North
There is no doubt that this is the man I should walk with
Ironically the only man on earth I can trust and follow…
After mirroring his every move during our first encounter
Makes me want to question my belief of reincarnation
I never want to lose him
He understands me like no other
Reads my every thought silently
He knows how deep my love is
So thankful to have him back
No bitterness. No revenge sought out.
Only the love that has been lurking on the sideline
Now in clear view
Front and center
A reunion in its purest and most beautiful form…
My best friend. My lover. My blessing. My all.

Holosync deep meditation program: Day 1

I've been meaning to try this program but for some reason it slipped my mind completely for a couple years. I was introduced to this advancement in audio technology by a client of mine when I was working as an LMT. I noticed how deeply he seemed to "let go" as soon as he popped in his earbuds and I had to know what he was listening to. When asked, the well mannered, middle-aged man was more than happy to tell me about The Centerpointe Institute and the Holosync program. He said it changed his life for the better and that I should try it if I have any interest in meditation. I did and I was curious but after seeing the hefty price tag (about $200 for each level) I declined. Well I have so much free time now that I had to have it. I read and watched many reviews, most of them good and I was excited. I am have shown significant growth towards spiritual consciousness, through GOD alone and have already fought off most of my demons but I figured this could be helpful in other areas. The website says that some benefits of continued use are...

* Creates states of deep meditation and gives you the benefits of long-term, deep meditation, but much more quickly.
* Boosts intelligence and creativity
* Dramatically lowers stress—raises your threshold for what you can handle coming at you from the world.
* Creates new levels of self-awareness
and inner peace.
* Heals unresolved emotional issues at the deepest level, including anxiety, depression, anger, substance-abuse, fear and many other dysfunctional feelings.


That all sounds great, but does it work? I'm not sure yet, it's my first day. I will say that t is unlike any audio program I have ever tried and it is much more than nature sounds and soft music. At the recommended newbie dosage of 30 min I truly felt like someone was raping my mind with profoundness. I sat up, eyes closed, skullcandy earbudz in, listening and thinking positive thoughts as Disc 1:The Dive caused my brain waves to plummet to Delta stage or at least thats what it was supposed to do. Honesty it did feel good and I anticipate "diving" further into this awakening journey of the mind. The founder of Holosync, Bill Harris warns customers that the first few months may prove to be overwhelming as you transition over to a more balanced you. I'm a big believer in spiritual warfare and I have to agree that if you are filled with sin and live on the wildside, that your inner demons will rebel against such a program. When I was faithfully attempting to complete a set of mantras to help me fight worldly temptation, I was challenged with all types of stressful situations, people were turning on me left and right and nothing seemed to be going right. I fought through and completed my mantras but it would have been easier to give up. I am ready for anything, through GOD I am eqiupped and I will let you know how everything goes. The full Holosync course is done over the course of about 10 years which is something I can appreciate. I am tired of companies marketing the "quick fix". I may not ride it out for a decade but I am delightfully intrigued.

Like opening a brand new journal...

Ciao. You crack open a book everyday other day or so and you write. After a while you realize you no longer connect with your paperback friend anymore so you slow the entries down. Once a week turns into only key events like funerals and reunions and so...death of the journal? No, no, you just need a fresh start. A new beginning. A trip to Barnes & Noble to purchase that crisp Tivoli embossed, Italian leather jounal. Ooh la la, that's sure to cure writer's block. Blogger is my new splurge. My latest commitment. My upgrade from Today.com. I get to share my world with the world, free of shameless ads for exercise machines, custom knee braces or whatever else my last post was about. I now have full access to HTML for the look and feel of my site, which gives me elbowroom to eventually take on a lengthy, but oh-so worth it Photoshop project. Eventually my readers will find me. I'm in no rush though, I'm a sucker for change. I love it...Welcome! Salve! Oh yeah, I'm teaching myself Italian so excuse my language at times. Nessuno parla qui l'italiano?